Thanks so much to everyone here for their support, and to those who sent me PM's expressing their sorrow for what has been going on the last few days with Shug. After a consult with a specialist in California, the only thing left to do was exploratory surgery, and I just could not put the poor guy through that. Everything that could be done was done, so Shug went to sleep in my arms about an hour ago. Many, many tears have been shed today knowing that I had to do this, but my buddy let me know this morning that it was time. I love you Shug, and if there's anything after this, I will see you again. You will forever live in my heart....
MAY I GO?
May I go now?
Do you think the time is right?
May I say goodbye to pain filled days
and endless lonely nights?
I've lived my life and done my best,
an example tried to be.
So can I take that step beyond
and set my spirit free?
I didn't want to go at first,
I fought with all my might.
But something seems to draw me now
to a warm and loving light.
I want to go. I really do.
It's difficult to stay.
But I will try as best I can
to live just one more day.
To give you time to care for me
and share your love and fears.
I know you're sad and afraid,
because I see your tears.
I'll not be far, I promise that,
and hope you'll always know
that my spirit will be close to you
wherever you may go.
Thank you so for loving me.
You know I love you, too.
That's why it's hard to say goodbye
and end this life with you.
So hold me now just one more time
and let me hear you say,
because you care so much for me,
you'll let me go today.
~ Susan A. Jackson ~
Terry