Thank you all for your kind words. I really am in a state of shock right now. It's my folks that I feel for. You guys and girls are my extended family and all of this helps. You never expect to get a phone call from your mom saying that your brother is dead. He was 36 years old. What a shame. Only because I feel as though we are family is the reason I can tell you how it happened. He took his own life, no note,no clues nothing. My dad found him and he is a wreck. I can't get the picture out of my head. My folks are blaming themselves and asking the question that may never be answered, " Why?" .I have to be strong for them and setting up all the arrangements. I never thought I would have to do this. So keep my parents in your prayers they need it,their struggling with this. Thanks all again, Q