King,
Due to a fall at work in 1986 that did allot of physical damage to me, I'll keep it short here. I was up to (4) 30Mg of oxy for my maintenance for many years. Yes there are some unpleasant side effects for me but without them I don't function at all. My Dr. had a stroke 2 years ago and gave me my script for my regular MD. to take over. When he looked at the amount I was taking and told me that he only prescribes that amount for people who are in sever pain & very near death. It took some time to locate another physician & then another but now I'm down to (4) 15Mg instead of 30Mg.
Not to contradict you but just to make something clear there is a huge difference between being addicted and being dependent. Going cold turkey is not something I would advise, tried it a number of times but failed miserably and made the people around me very miserable. You may need to work with a pain management MD for what ever length of time it takes and develop a relationship that will allow you some flexibility on the amount of meds required to function at a given time. I will never be able to do the things I once did, but I have learned to manage my activities with the medication I take. Among others I was on Morphine & Methadone and both made matters much worse, plays with your mind in my case. Anxiety and pain meds can give a person a short fuse if things are not progressing or healing fast enough. I was at the end of my rope & after a brief amount of time in the Hospital I took the course now available on a CD & Book called "Managing Pain before it Manages You" by Margaret A. Caudill, MD,PHD. I would not have made it or be here without it. I'm home all day and would like to offer my time to you in any way I could help. You don't have to be alone and as many people have learned you don't have to take all the pain with you, you can develop tools to decide on just how much pain you will take on without dragging you down. Oh & in my case when I take my pain meds and there are people around my wife & I have developed a signal to remind me that I'm talking way to much, that is one side effect for me. I get carried away even on this sire that's why I think I hold the record for unanswered post or the last one to answer post.
Good Luck & don't put to much pressure on yourself. There is allot to relearn & adjust to.
Send a PM & I will give you my tel. number if you wish.