Mostly a long-time lurker here, but after reading the replies I am proud to be considered a member. This is one special and supportive group... I hope they must pry my dead fingers off my hand grips the day I go... Each night I lay down to sleep, no matter what troubles I face, I can focus my thoughts on my bike or riding and crowd out worrisome issues. I know they won't go away, but at least I can temporarily replace them in those quiet moments before I go to sleep. Someone said it here before - "Riding a motorcycle is my mental health "drug" of choice". Drugs have side effects and most come with warning labels. We take these drugs knowing the side effects because the net benefits mosly out way the bad effects... I know my motorcycle riding "drug" has powerful and dangerous side effects, but for me so does not riding... Gather all the input and feedback you can to make your best or "least-worst" choice... It will be the right one...