Howdy!!!
Thank you Sue for filling in for me when I'm not only sure if I am able to follow the train of thought I shooting for but also be sure it's me that is writing. but,Yup, it's me for sure this time. I think. Although at times it's very difficult not only to write but also to comprehend the thoughts.
It's been a little tougher the last few days to stay on track, mainly because I've had more than a few med changes. Also, I'm officially on hospice now with lots of follow up by new Doc's and checking to be sure that I am still under the direct care of the Doc's that I have come to trust on the day to day but also the long term care as well and I can't forget the care I get from my Suzie-Q. With out whom I'd be lost in space.
The Doc's goal is to get me on an automatic pump and with an easy push of a bottom the pain would drop. Sounds good on paper, but with everything the devil is in the details. I have a different goal that I think leaves me closer to more riding. I know, I know, More pain, but The up side give me the hope more miles. If I can pull it off I'llhave more pain, something I already have, An easy trade for a long long ride. Something to put the butchers thumb on my side of the scale for a change.
I still need to deal with the sleep issue as well as those other side effects that fog up the scoreboard with every med change.
There is one change I like though. And that's is the one where the Doc's come to my house. Believe me that is truly a plus. But, I will let you know if they live up to their side of the deal. There is a funny side to this switch a dee dew da. I get to make the appointment and when they ask me who I would like appointment with, I simply say, "With me."
I wish I could see it in living color and all, but for now I'll settle for an imagined fly on the wall.
Till next time
Your friend and brother
Sam